So it’s New Years Eve and we all want to see 2016 go for typical reasons. We have lost a lot of icons this year and I am sure some of us lost somebody personally as well but luckily Betty White is still alive and kicking.
Well, what’s your resolution this year? Is it the same as the rest of the world? You want to lose weight, you want to get a promotion, or you want to be a stronger person?
Mine are typical as well but maybe we should challenge each other this year to go further.
Let me share my resolutions with you. The first is to lose weight and overall be healthier for myself and my family. I am the heaviest I have ever been and it’s time to stop making excuses and just do something about it but I want something more than just to be physically healthy; I also want to be mentally healthy.
I’m not going to ever say that my disorder will go away. Being someone that has Borderline Personality Disorder is like someone with diabetes or cancer- you can’t see it but it’s there and it can kill you if you let it.
I am always going to struggle and most people will never see the inner torment that this disorder causes. My mind is warped with distorted thinking about myself and how others perceive me; I struggle with suicide ideation, I struggle with not knowing who I really am- I struggle with living and you will never know. I wouldn’t want you to even try to understand because my mind is a scary place to be especially when I am alone and thinking. My mind can be very dark and harsh and some moments there is a small glimpse of light; a glimpse of hope; a glimpse of healing.
This year, I want people to recognize the battles of people with mental illness- don’t look at us like we are lesser but look at us a strong people that battle inner demons. Let us get rid of the stigma of mental illness.
This year let’s do something better than we did last year…
This year, I want us to help our fellow man without judgement. Help people on the side of the road by buying them a hot meal or a hot cup of coffee. It’s only a few dollars but it could warm their heart and fill them with hope.
This year, love your significant other more than you did last year. Being together is a lot of work but put forth the work and remember how in love you were that first time you said those three words for the first time.
This year, be a friend. Not just to your regular friends but to those who are hiding from the crowd and are just blending into the background. Bring them out of the background and show them how special life can be living on the edge of being visible to the world around them.
This year, visit your grandparents before they’re gone. Listen to all their old stories from when they were younger. Find out about their lives before you regret not really knowing them at all.
This year, hold your children a little tighter before they are too big for them to let you.
This year, pray for the minority. Pray for black men and women, Muslims, and the LGBQT community.
This year, pray for peace.
This year, pray for hope.
This year, pray for love.
Until next time,
This year is our year.