Today I want to die but today is not the day because my little girl just came in and asked me to call her by her nickname more often. Ok my little peanut.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because my daughter was speaking whale in her room before bed and it made me laugh. Thanks Finding Dory.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because my soon to be teenager hugged me super tight.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because I made my son laugh. He laughed so hard his little eyes were just tiny slits. That’s how I know my joke was good.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because my husband told me he loved me.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because my son said the sweetest thing to me today, ‘do you want to take naps together?’
Today I want to die but today is not the day because my dog, who is the spawn of Satan, licked my nose. A sign of affection before an attack.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because my kids need to make it to swim practice and I’m their driver.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because who is going to make the family dinner?
Today I want to die but today is not the day because who is going to sing my kids their bedtime songs.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because I had a friend reach out to me to check to see if I was ok. Trust me, I’m fine.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because I love my kids too much.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because I love my wonderful husband too much.
Today I want to die but today is not the day because I don’t have the courage.
Until next time,
Allison
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